They Aren't Playing Fair

I'm not typically someone who cries "It's not fair".  

I mean with the life I've been dealt, 

fairness was NEVER part of the deal.

Interviewing for a job is much like playing a game with only minimal rules, But I'm trying to play the game the best I can with what rules I have in front of me.  I dress nicely and professionally, I bring extra resumes, my references, I show up 15 minutes early, I smile, make eye contact, answer everything with a positive attitude, and I send Thank you's to the interviewer.

Why is it impossible for an interviewer to do one simple little thing for the people who have invested time, energy, and hope into their company?  Why can't they let us know when they have filled the position?  When you've jump though several hoops for them, Phone interview, face to face interview, 4 hour work interview, I don't think it's to much to ask for a simple email/phone call/ form letter stating they Thank you for your time, but they filled to position.

No Loyalty for the Loyal!

There is something that is really bothering me.  It's keeping me awake at night and causing knots in my stomach!

In the beginning of March, my boss announced that she will be closing her practice and our last day of work would be May 12, 2016.  We were all told that we would receive 4 weeks pay as severance, and then after our meeting, my boss came to me and said she would be giving me 6 weeks, I asked if I could buy my company laptop and was told, I could keep it, I thanked my boss for her kindness, for the extra 2 weeks, and for the laptop.  She said, I've been a great and loyal employee of 5 years and it's the least she could do.

Until...

I fucked up!!! Yep! In February I sent the wrong receipt to a patient, which is a HIPAA violation, in 5 years doing what I do, I have never made such a mistake, and yes it was big.

So, as punishment I lost 4 weeks of severance.  This is a huge hit, my plans where based on the verbal promise of 6 weeks.  It is true that I've been a loyal employee, I've turned down 2 job offers made to me during the 5 years I worked for my employer, I've endured some pretty bad verbal abuse, and ignored years of co-workers and colleagues telling me to "get out, and don't look back"

I know I should be thankful I still have 2 weeks severance and the laptop, and I am thankful for that, but I also feel betrayed, let down, and forgotten about, as if the last 5 years were all boiled down to this one mistake, no matter how big the mistake was.

I am ready for a change, a big change!!!  I'm scared but also very excited!!!