Lazily being Busy

My 17 year old asked me yesterday why I haven't posted anything in awhile, and the truth is I didn't really have an answer for him.

I've been a combination of super busy and super lazy.  I think the lazy part has out ranked the busy part on most days!

It's not like I have ran out of things to write about, I think of topics everyday, like "Bison Can Make Great Pets", "Toe Pulling", and "The Bug Hero"

So, for Raistlin, I will commit to writing at least 15 posts in April!

Apartment Trap

Five years ago when we moved into our 2 bed 2 bath apartment on the third floor, we were so happy.  It was a huge upgrade to where we were living.  After five years of climbing 2 flights of stairs, out growing our space, and living very close to a soon to be Traffic Maker, we have decided to start our quest to move.  Our plan was to take our sweet sweet time and look and move if we found something.  We allocated money to move with.  I redid the budget to see what we can afford, and for the last 4 years our lease has been a month to month so no problems...

Well yesterday I was told that as of May 1st we have to go back to a year lease, and if we break it we have to pay a $1,400 Termination Fee.  That is just Crazy Talk!!!

So our choices are to rush around and try to find something, stay put for another year, or try and allocate some more funds so we can more when we want.

I'm a bit upset by these turn of events!!!

Junior High, High School, and Life

I had coffee with a good friend this last Sunday and we talked about all kinds of stuff.  One topic that has got me thinking...Thinking ALOT, was our life in junior high, high school, and life.

Junior high was tough, New Friends, New Enemies, New Classes, New Self...

High school not as tough, Maintaining old friends as they find new friends, Maintaining self as you find new self...again, Maintaining grades while keeping busy with sports/outside actives.

Life is a roller-coaster of tough and easy wrapped up in newspaper and a shinny bow. We do things like raising a family (whether its children, a spouse, furry babies, or even yourself) Work our butts off to pay bills, Keeping friends, finding old friends, forcing co-workers to be your friends, and don't forget about being a "Grown Up" (it's not as fun as I thought it would be)

I guess if I had to pick a time to go back to, you know one of those weird questions that a kid would ask you "If someone put a gun to your head and told you to pick a time to travel back to in their DeLorean, what time in your life would you return too?"

99% of my childhood was FUCKED UP!!! But I had alot of fun in junior high.  I had friends, probably the most friends I ever had, I had sleep overs, and stayed up late watching scary movies and playing with Ouija Boards.  It may not have been the best time of my life... But it was the funnest!!

Happy Birthday!

"Whoever said that loss gets easier with time was a liar.  Here's what really happens: The spaces between the times you miss them grow longer.  Then, when you do remember to miss them again, it's still with a stabbing pain to the heart.  And you have guilt.  Guilt because it's been too long since you missed them last."
~Kristin O'Donnell Tubb, The 13th Sign

Today would have been my mother's 58th birthday.  Even though I lost her 34 years ago, there are days I miss her as much as I did the day I found out that she had died.  True some days are harder then other days, but the loss never goes away, the pain doesn't go away, sure there are days I don't think of her at all, but during those times that I miss her, it hurts.

Happy Birthday!

Quitting Food!

It's been almost a full year since I quit smoking.  I don't want to say it was easy, but it wasn't as hard as I though it would be.  I mean I've quit before, I didn't smoke while pregnant or nursing any of my children, but I quit for them and not me, this time I quit for me and I feel great.

Quitting smoking was only one step of my goal of becoming a healthier me.  The other goals were to lose weight and get in regular exercise.  Well I'm failing on these both!!

I mean it should be easy right?  who doesn't want to go to the gym after a long day at work instead of collapsing on the sofa and vegging out while watching Grey's Anatomy?

I started off great, Aug 1st I joined weight watchers, my weight loss program of choice, between Aug and Oct I lost 24 pounds, Then the holidays hit and the new year.  I had to redo the 2014 budget and I just didn't have the funds to support my monthly weight watchers fee.  I weighed myself this morning and I have gained 19 of those pounds back.  I am working on the plan on my own, but I'm just not motivated right now.

I think quitting smoking was easier then losing weight because I can avoid cigarettes but I can't avoid food.

Little Toes

This last Saturday I got to do something I've been waiting to do Since the Doctor said "It's a girl"  I took my 3 year old daughter to her first dance class.

It was one of the best feelings in the world as I stood at the dance room door taking picture after picture of my little girl learning ballet.  At one point my eye's welled up but I fought back those tears because I didn't want to be one of "those moms".

Even though I'm a little sad I'm losing my baby, my last baby, my only baby girl, I am so excite about this new chapter is my daughters life.