You Can Be Anything you Want???

We have all told our children "You can be anything you want to be when you grow up".  We want to expand their imaginations and let them explore the possibilities of being all that they dream of.

My 3 year old told me this morning "When I grow up I want to be a Cupcake Fairy".  In fact in the past month the things she has wanted to be has ranged from Mermaid to Princess Ballerina that flies to a Good Witch that turns boys into girls (because boys are bad and girls are good).

I've looked, I can't find a college that has a Mermaid training course, or a trade school specializing in the fairy arts.

She has awhile before she has to choose a career, and I love hearing all the things she "is" going to be when she grows up.

Twilight Zone... Play on!

I once had a very traumatic experience, and in the background played the twilight zone music, I didn't like the music before that, and after that, hearing that song would but me into a severe panic attack.

As an adult I simply avoid listening to this ever so popular music... And that has served me fine, until now!

For my daughter's 5th Birthday we wont be having a birthday party for her, instead we will be taking her for her first trip to Disneyland and Disney California Adventure Park.

It's been 17 years since my last trip to Disneyland, and I've never been to California Adventure Park.  There is a ride there I so want to go on.  The Twilight Zone Tower of Terror.  It's my kind of ride, except for the music.

I have 16 months to desensitize myself from my Panic Attacks and Anxieties when I hear the music.  I'll let you all know how this goes!! HAHA......ha ha.... 

Smiles in Dark Places

I mention quite often that my childhood was unpleasant, but I can remember some enjoyable times too, and they mostly revolve around TV.

Shows like Knight Rider, Dukes of Hazard, Wonder Woman, The Incredible Hulk, The A Team, The Love Boat, and Fantasy Island give me the warm fuzzies.  It's not because of how great the acting was on Knight Rider, or the amazing stories told on The Love Boat.  It's the memories of sitting with my brother and enjoying these shows with him.  As children I fought him my brother too much and mostly for no real reason, but  even as a child I loved watching TV with him.

I see these shows on TVLand sometimes, and I stop to watch a little bit just for the smiles and the happy feelings they leave.

Saying Yes More Then Saying No.

As a child I can remember being dragged to fairs, carnivals, street festivals, flea markets and other type events.   I hated it because I wasn't allowed to do anything when we would go.

There was this stupid sand art thing I always wanted to do at many of these places, and I was always told no.  In fact about 95% of the things I wanted to do or buy at these places I was told no.  I never found going to any of these event fun because it just involved alot of walking and hearing the word no 100 times.

Yesterday I took my daughter to a Fantasy Faire and we all had so much fun.  I said yes more then I said no and I think it made the difference.  She got a mermaid painted on her arm, she blew fairy bubbles, climbed on a pirate ship, decorated a crown, rode on the back of a unicorn, found eggs hidden by a dragon, hid from the fairy catcher, beat her dad at a top battle, and shot peanuts at little bells.  

I did say no once, I wouldn't buy her a $30 tiara, but she didn't get upset, she went to the next booth to see what was going on somewhere else.

I didn't spend an arm and a leg for her to do these activities, and she didn't have to see all the other fairies and princesses playing, doing things and feeling left out.  

  

National Sibling Day

I have no idea what national sibling day is about...

But I will tell you about my sibling.  He's pretty awesome, even though he thinks he's more awesome then he really is.  He's really fun to be around, and LOUD when he's had to much to drink.

He has been my brother for 38 years, and even though we don't always agree on things, and we have had our share of fights, I am super lucky to have him for my brother.

We had a pretty crappy childhood, and even though I wouldn't wish what we went though on anyone, I am happy I had him by my side as a child.

I was a terrible sister, I pick on him and beat him up, promised him things I never planned to give him, I made him dress up as a girl and then had him ride his bike down the street for my own entertainment.  As adults he enjoys being a dick to me whenever he gets the chance, probably for payback.

Through all of everything we have remained close.  No matter what he will always be my brother, I would do anything for him, and love him very much.

I Just Don't Get It

Fighting, Boxing, or MMA

I just don't get it.  I don't understand the thrill of seeing someone beating up someone else for the sport of it.  Viewing someone inflicting pain on someone else and seeing someone getting the crap beat out of them, I just don't get it.

I want my children to be whatever they want to be, but deep down inside there are things I hope my children wont be.  I hope my child never hurts someone no matter how much it pays, I hope my child is never physically beat up for a paycheck.

For me, I see MMA as being barbaric, violent and dangerous, and  90% of boxers will have sustained a brain injury by the end of their careers. If this was something one of my children decided to do, I would still love them as much as ever, but I would never go see them fight.  I just couldn't bear seeing my child, no matter what age, hurt and bleeding.

Maybe it's the mother in me, or the overly sensitive person that I am, but I just don't get it.

It's Fun To Have Funds!

It's really funny to see how a child thinks...  These two examples has taken place in my home in just the last week.

Hunter is 12, and very bright.  Recently his mattress has started falling apart and we asked him if he would mind sleeping on an air mattress for a short period of time until we move and then we will buy him a bedroom set.  He loved the idea and asked how soon he can get one.  I explained that we have more funds at the end of the month, so closer to the end of the month is more likely.  He thought about it for a minute and then asked "So you want me to have more fun with the air mattress, thats why you're making me wait?'

I had to explain the difference between funds and fun...  True though, it is more fun to have more funds!!

Stevi is 3.5 going on 15!  Many times when we are shopping in Milpitas, we can smell the dump.  Stevi will ask us what that smell is, and we reply "Milpitas".  This morning she came to me and told me her room is milpitas.  Not knowing what she said or what she was talking about I asked her repeat herself.  She told me "I think Hunter farted in my room, my room is now milpitas"

I realized she thinks "Milpitas" is a type of smell, not a city.

I'm A NONSMOKER!!

When I felt like it was a chore to go out and have a cigarette, when I saw my 2 year old daughter pretending to smoke, when I just couldn't climb the stairs anymore without gasping for air, I knew it was time for me to really quit smoking.

I've quit smoking before, a few times before, and for long periods of time.  I quit every time I was pregnant and during nursing my babies.  But I always quit for their health, not mine and shortly after weening my children I would be back to smoking.

Last year as I approached my 40th birthday I just decided enough was enough and I needed to, and I wanted to quit.

The support I got form my amazing boyfriend was awesome, because he didn't just support me, but he quit too, and I am so proud of him and so thankful he decided to quit too, I don't think I would have been able to do it without him. let me rephrase that, I KNOW  I wouldn't have been able to do it without him.

Today is our one year non-smoking anniversary!!!