What's in a name?

"What's in a name? 

That which we call a rose 

by any other name would smell as sweet."

                                             -Willam Shakespare

Among all my issues, one of my biggest is social anxiety.  It's not just around large groups of people or strangers, although those are huge triggers for me and I stress about events like those for weeks before hand.  No, I also have social anxiety around family and friends in smaller groups as well.  My biggest fear is being embarrassed, sometimes just ordering food can set off my anxieties.

OK, I know you are thinking what does any of this have to do with names?

I freak out when I can't say someones name correctly.  I interviewed 3 daycares before I interviewed the daycare my daughter is at.  Stevi goes to a great daycare that she has been at for 3 years now, but I didn't want to call to set up an interview with the provider because I didn't know how to say her name.  My daughter was at the daycare for 6 months before I even tried to say the providers name.

I have a wonderful sister-in-law whose name I just can't say correctly, no matter how much my brother sounds it out for me.  Of course he has to get in his stupid loud laugh in first, and make me embarrassed for even trying to say it - He's an ass! (I can say that cuz it's true)  Instead I try to find ways to avoid saying her name, like waiting till she is looking at me to talk to her, or sitting close to her so it's obvious I'm talking to her.

Her name is very beautiful, it sounds strong and delicate at the same time.  It fits her perfectly, and I wish I could say it, but I would rather not say it then destroy and mutilate it, I would rather not say it then have my brother laugh at me. (ASS!!)